There are so many things stirring in my spirit right now. Due to financial cutbacks, I will not be returning to work from my maternity leave. It's funny how such news hits you. It's as if the Lord was preparing me. I feel bittersweet. A chapter of my life is officially over (as if having the twins wasn't enough, ha!).
I also feel exhilarated at what lays in front of me.
An open door.
There are things the Lord has been prompting me to step into, but I have been holding off on them. It's as if I am standing in a doorway with the door open to a cliff. I know I must go through this door, but I have been clinging to the doorway with white knuckles scared to make the leap.
One of the things I must leap into is this blog. I have been apprehensive about the fact that someone is actually going to read it! Read my thoughts! What should I share, where should I start?
I love the song New Day by will.i.am. I know it was written in honor of Barack Obama becoming President, but the emotion behind the song, the joy at something new happening resonates within me. Joy at something anticipated, thought about, dreamt about actually happening. What does the Lord have for me? How is He going to order my steps? How will He bring to pass the dreams I have in my heart? What will my life look like?
So, I live with baited breath, confident in my Maker, the Author of my life. This is what living by faith really is.